I am feeling rather depressed today. My PT, Shannon, pointed out some truths to me about my "lack of compliance" with my exercise routine. She sees right through me. She's good. And she isn't even a specialist with MS! Still, she certainly hit on my buttons, in a very kindly way, as we discussed the ebbs and flows that is MS. Why am I not doing my home exercises? I don't know. Because I don't believe that they will keep me from getting worse, I guess. In my heart of hearts I feel it is inevitable - getting worse. I have seen it - too much of it - it will happen to me, too. And I guess I feel that there's not anything I can do that will change that. So, I don't bother. I started out with high hopes, and I was getting stronger. . . THEN, I got that damned sinus infection which pretty much put me back where I was. I guess I'm feeling, "What's the point?" Of course, I know that if I continue the way I have been - not doing much of ...
Can't WAIT! I want a colo so bad! Just so many transfers I'd have to do...how many? I must know. I'll fast liquid b4...how do they expect ppl in wheelchairs to do the prep. KK did it, I am so jealous. She didn't have to drink all the prep either. Bitch. (oh, sorry) I'll be on the edge of my loo waiting to hear how it goes. Have you done it b4? Good luck, mate! CHEERS!
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good luck. Lots of it. And I came across a wonderful word for explaining our form of fatigue 'exhaustipation' which was defined as too tired to give a sh_t.
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