Christmas Cometh and Christmas Goeth
Yes we've just passed that time of the year when all is jolly and cookies abound, but to me it has become a time of coping; coping with desires usually unmet, and with abilities long gone. I cope with trying to communicate sincerely with friends and family and am often still not heard. I have suppressed my former desires of this season which I used to love so very much, so deep within me that I can barely remember what it was I liked to do each December. Any counselor worth his salt would urge me to let it out, but instead I tend to stuff it. Maybe that's a blessing as now, for me, for several reasons, there is precious little I can do any more. What this time of year brings without fail is a lot of negative thinking that I know is not good for me or anyone else, but there it is. So, suppress it I must until the holidays pass. In the meanwhile I try to do what I can to get through it all. My immediate (as opposed to extended) family is having Christmas Day in Anacort...