things that are on my mind, and that may keep me up at night


Okay, so I am up at night anyway... tonight I'm watching Home Alone - whatever the franchise is calling it. It is overacted, and the kid will never be as famous as Macauley Culkin (sp?). Anyway. I decided to balance my check book because it was on my list of things to do today, along with eat some oatmeal, which I didn't, and carrots, also didn't, but I did take a shower.

So here I am listening to this dumb semi-holiday movie at three a.m. and working on the checkbook, and I come out with a balance that is about $7 off to my favor plus my monthly budget.  Ladies and gentlemen, I am scraping the bottom of the barrel. I have so little cushion it makes me nervous.

Add to that, not only does our garage roof leak, but the house roof is leaking too! It started again in the bathroom during a squall that passed through this evening - and this with a tarp up there.


October it was the car that spent 10 days at car camp, last week it was the microwave that stopped working after not even four years, and now a leaky roof. I sure hope this hasn't been happening over a long period of time and that there's no dry rot going on in the rafters. That there is a classic example of catastrophic thinking. I've done cognitive therapy before, but in this case it seems like a reasonable enough thought for me to entertain.  So...

Just thought I'd share.

Give it a voice.

Get it out in the open so I can finish my stupid movie and go to sleep.

Be well,




P.S. If I had a little more energy I'd pour myself a drink.

Comments

  1. MuffieDecember 1, 2012 at 9:01:00 AM PST

    All of what you say sounds so familiar -- not the 'up-at-night' part, though! I sleep well because I really get tired, but the sleep doesn't preclude the thoughts of doom. Once this lousy disease took over, my financial situation went south quickly. I try not to worry, but I do anyway.
    The drink part sounds good!
    Peace,
    Muff

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  2. SherriDecember 1, 2012 at 12:03:00 PM PST

    when it rains it pours....

    i never understood why only one thing going wrong wasn't enough...

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  3. AmiDecember 1, 2012 at 12:16:00 PM PST

    I do that too. The worst case scenario... yep, that's what's going on. Weird spot on my breast? I'm dying. Ditto the weird spot on my leg. Certain death. Car making a funny noise? We're gonna end up homeless because I can't make it to work.

    Does it help to know you're not alone?

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  4. Elephant's ChildDecember 1, 2012 at 2:44:00 PM PST

    Sounds like a classic case of the 3am horrors - which I suffer from myself. Everything looks bigger, meaner, more expensive and uglier at that time. Including myself. Sadly some of the ugliness does not leave at daybreak. I hope yours does, and that your leak is NOT dryrot and is easily (and cheaply) fixed.

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  5. KarenDecember 1, 2012 at 5:01:00 PM PST

    Ah, you should have just guzzled it straight from the bottle ;) You too seem to be the victim of Murphy's Law. Hope things start to get better for you soon.

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