Is it too soon to ask, "Was it worth it?"

Today, that is the question. I don't feel bad, per se, I just feel - off. It's probably due to the rapid withdrawal off the meds, combined with my so very odd sleep UNschedule. Remember, the night before last I slept very well, and felt good all day. Last night I slept almost too well, and, perhaps because it was Sunday and I was listening to KUOW (NPR), that I stayed in bed long after I should have arisen. Besides, it seemed cold, grey, and rainy. I could be wrong about that, I was after all, still in bed! But that's how I envisioned the outside. Once I got up I took a nice shower, and had a cup of coffee. A good way to start the day - along with the Sunday paper which is 85% ads.

Over the weekend I have lost all the water weight I gained - which is a big plus, because the steroid bloat sucks. Besides which, I am always amused that I can lose seven pounds overnight -- whether it means anything or not! My brain feels foggy today, and that most assuredly is due to staying in bed too long. As far as other physical benefits -- well, I'm not sure yet. Let's give it a few more days to see.

Tonight, DH asked me if I had saved the money I need to buy a new foam mattress for my platform bed. This is the first speck of interest he has shown about my plan to change beds. I do have it saved up, and am waiting so I can borrow my friend's pickup because she has a canopy. Also, I think I'd like to have my room painted, and she might be able to pursuede, or help, him do that. I'm projecting wishful thinking perhaps, but it seems that a cleaned up bedroom, with a new comfy bed and brand new linens will help me to physically feel so much better. Anyway, I can dream about it, right?

I feel the need for some fresh air. This Spring has been cold and wet. We usually have had a few nice days by now, but not this year. Still, I'm very glad I don't live in North Dakota. What's happening in Fargo is downright scary. I pray to God that those levees hold.

Oh, and I'm having cravings! Now it's for tapoca pudding - a few nights ago it was for real chocolate mousse which I was hoping I could talk my friend into making for me. Maybe tomorrow I'll make the tapioca, because I'm pretty sure I can manage that - if I don't get too much sleep, that is! HA

Alright, I just realized I have descended inyo the realm of no longer making any sense, and having nothing interesting to say. So I'll stop wasting your time.

Good Night, TTYL, and Be Well