I am feeling rather depressed today. My PT, Shannon, pointed out some truths to me about my "lack of compliance" with my exercise routine. She sees right through me. She's good. And she isn't even a specialist with MS! Still, she certainly hit on my buttons, in a very kindly way, as we discussed the ebbs and flows that is MS. Why am I not doing my home exercises? I don't know. Because I don't believe that they will keep me from getting worse, I guess. In my heart of hearts I feel it is inevitable - getting worse. I have seen it - too much of it - it will happen to me, too. And I guess I feel that there's not anything I can do that will change that. So, I don't bother. I started out with high hopes, and I was getting stronger. . . THEN, I got that damned sinus infection which pretty much put me back where I was. I guess I'm feeling, "What's the point?" Of course, I know that if I continue the way I have been - not doing much of ...
I had not noticed because my eyes ain't what they used to be. Had to put on stronger glasses and lean in close. :)
ReplyDeleteSorry it's so small, Ami, but that's how it was made.
DeleteYes I noticed! Although I can not figure out what the moving white and black line shape is between the text and your chair. If it is you - you sure are dumping a lot of java on the chair.
ReplyDeleteOkay Jan, I get that our eyes are wonky. Try looking at it in my profile. It seems a little bigger there. And that line is a newspaper she's reading while having coffee. No face showing, I hadn't put on my make-up!!
DeleteI hadn't noticed and am super impressed. It also looks like a tiger bside your chair - and that fills me with envy.
ReplyDeleteYeah, that was Worf, my orange tabby. He's gone now. I like your Tiger in the water avatar!
DeleteWorf might be gone, but he is not forgotten. My tiger was taken on a trip to a local(ish) zoo. The tiger was swimming after a chicken carcass that had been thrown to her. She caught it, and devoured it in less than no time.
DeleteLOL. When I first read that I thought you were saying MY Tiger was taken on a trip to a local zoo - and I thought She has a tiger??? Really??? And she takes it to the zoo? Then I thought better of that idea, and realised that it was the Picture of the tiger that was taken at the zoo. MS brain fart, silly me.
DeleteAs far as MS brain farts go, perhaps we could blame that one on both of us. I knew what I meant, but wasn't v clear. And I would LOVE my own tiger.
DeleteI meant to mention it sooner. THAT IS SO COOL!!! I am JEALOUS. AND, my post today relates to that, oh, no, maybe not as much as what I put on Face book. When the weather upgrades, maybe we can meet in an off-line chat room...oh, like that Starbuck's down from my joint? Blogger has messed ME up but YOU get a fancy dancy avatar. I do agree with kmilyun though, you need a head, dude.
ReplyDeleteBeggars can't be choosers. Actually my avatar was made for me by a friend on an MS Bulletin Board which is no longer, and she never did have a blog, so we're out of touch. Her name is Kmtnwmn. I don't know how to do any of that art on the computer stuff. LOL I don't know about an off-line meetup this year. Between my budget, my eyes, my symptomatology, and the price of gas I doubt if I even will get to my own family reunion this year.
DeleteA head would be good! I guess the rest of us non facebookers will have to wonder as to the rest of the story
ReplyDeleteKeep wondering, Jan. :-)
ReplyDeleteOK! Then we shall share virtual drinks! Cheers, Mate!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I thought that black line was your newspaper page being flipped. LOL, I noticed your avatar, but only today noticed happened has missing p's. Glad I'm not the only one--I often only see such typos days, sometimes months, after I have posted. I must hope other people with MS understand. (though a reader chewed me out over, "not caring enough to proof read it" --um...if I couldn't see it when I wrote it, after I finished it and spellchecked it...that is about the depth of my ability. Hahahaha
ReplyDeleteHAHAHA!
ReplyDeleteI don't have anything cool like that, may as well go to the garden and eat worms.
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