This is Christmas

This is my Christmas 2008 : I am going nowhere; I am doing nothing; No one has called me, so I don't much feel like calling anyone else (I am talking relatives).

There is a big part of me that says, "Fuck them. Fuck them all."

I feel sad and forgotten, and wonder why this is. I can't write any more. I just want to sleep.

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  1. BRAINCHEESEDecember 25, 2008 at 1:58:00 PM PST

    Send me your email addy...I have a completely OFFENSIVE Xmas song I can email you...sure to "cheer". LOL

    BTW...still snowed in my neighborhood and snow still falling. Team from work just came as close as they could get driving, walked the rest of the way in, and brought me Chinese food...just like a scene from "The Christmas Story". Although, I may deliberately "shoot an eye out" soon! LOL

    Linda D. in Seattle

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  2. kmilyunDecember 25, 2008 at 10:33:00 PM PST

    Well dang.

    I wish I had some magic words for you - but I am not witty enough tonight.

    I bit the bullet and spent the day with my parents. My only success in the hierarchy of droll family crap was I brought an apple and yam casserole that actually passed the "test".

    And, I kept my mouth shut when my brother - the one that uninvited me to thanksgiving - pontificated upon his wonderfulness LOL LOL

    If I had your number I for sure would have called you!

    I would not f'em cause that would be a wasted of energy - I mean if I have enough energy to get it on I sure would not waste it.

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  3. Lisa EmrichDecember 26, 2008 at 1:48:00 PM PST

    Webster,
    So sorry that you feel sad. Maybe it does have something to do with being forgotten TWICE when it came to the funeral and services recently.
    I'm thinking of you and hoping that you are feeling well otherwise.

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  4. WebsterDecember 26, 2008 at 11:12:00 PM PST

    Linda sent me a perfectly OFFENSIVE song from South Park - I am still shaking my head. lol

    Kmilyun, your dish with yams and apples sounds like one I made one holiday and brought to my folks. They liked it, but preferred their yams covered with marshmallows I think. Actually, I do too. Still, family drama is what the holidays is about - glad yours was light on that.

    Lisa, you are probably right. My sibs are knee, waist, and neck deep in their own problems. So, rather than stew too much, I slept - and slept some more. In fact I slept so much I woke up tired! Fifteen hours without a baclofen has left me pretty stiff, too. Other than that, I', okay.

    Thanks for your comments all.

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  5. Denver RefashionistaDecember 29, 2008 at 4:24:00 PM PST

    I am so sorry you had a rough christmas. Here I keep finding myself feeling sorry for myself and I have no reason. I was just thinking about you and wanted to stop by to say "chin up." May the new year bring you good things.

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  6. WebsterDecember 29, 2008 at 5:10:00 PM PST

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  7. WebsterDecember 29, 2008 at 5:18:00 PM PST

    What I meant to say was that 2009 just HAS to be better than December 2008 was for me; and for my brothers, too. Not all of them forgot me, and they each have problems that are greater than mine.

    Thanks for your boost up, D.R., it means a lot.

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