Memory Problems


"i do get my dates mixed sometimes
 think of how much i had a chance to forget"*



DH recently recounted something from our distant past, some 28 years ago, and I swear I was not privy to that conversation,  so who is correct, him or me? There is no way of knowing for sure.   (This would be long term memory loss.)


DH tells me to do something on the computer, then leaves the room, and I turn to my laptop, take a sip of coffee, go to the website and have no fucking idea what I am supposed to  do now that I'm there. (This could be recent memory loss.)

Sometimes I am discussing something with someone and I hear a distracting bit of information elsewhere in the room (TV,  radio, any distraction) and I don't know what I was saying. (This would be short term memory loss.) Another turn of that same coin is starting to say something and simply losing my train of thought "Oh well, it'll come to me sooner or later."

Then there's that darned problem with word retrieval. I know you know what I mean. For me, if I start to say a different work that begins with the same letter, if often triggers the correct word. Some times. I remember asking a friend if I had been doing that a lot lately, and she told me, "Yes - but I wasn't going to say anything about it." Kind words from one articulate friend to another.

All of these affect me, and they seem to be worse since I got home from my lost Summer (my infection-sepsis-ER-admission-operation-blood clot-rehab center experience), and apparently what a Summer it was.

I am pretty sure I had a relapse during this experience, as my left side is weaker, my left hand is weak and numb (well, number than usual). My thinking is foggier, though it seems to be getting better, an my ON seems to want to make a daily appearance, especially when I am tired.



I have post-its all over the place, but I often can't read them as my handwriting has gotten so bad. If I have the write -- gee whiz, that would be right -- pen, and  use it on a solid surface, I do pretty well, otherwise, I have cryptics to mull over.

Good Night, TTYL and Be well,





Comments

  1. Elephant's ChildSeptember 25, 2015 at 12:17:00 AM PDT

    Sigh. Quite a lot of this is toooo familiar.
    Handwriting? If I print slowly I can read it.
    Memory? Shot.
    And I resort to mime all too often to try and explain which word has escaped me.
    Getting upset about any of these joys makes it worse.
    Good luck. I hope it settles to a half bearable equilibrium.

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    1. WebsterSeptember 26, 2015 at 1:04:00 AM PDT

      "and I have a question for you,red says,"* with all of these MS issues, how can you answer 98 comments +/- a day, reply to every one of them, read your blogs and comment, always, write your posts, take your pictures, and still have time to pet your cats and greet your partner in an appropriate manner?
      **e.e.cummings

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    2. Elephant's ChildSeptember 26, 2015 at 1:48:00 AM PDT

      I seem to have given up sleep. And housework...

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  2. AmiSeptember 25, 2015 at 8:29:00 AM PDT

    I am so happy to see this post, I have been worrying about you. I'm glad you're home. That's great news indeed!!
    ((big hugs)))

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    1. WebsterSeptember 26, 2015 at 1:12:00 AM PDT

      I was going to send you some thing, but I forgot.

      ((((ami)))) back.

      Dtd you notice that glaring homonym mistake -- write/right -- in the last paragraph? It's fixed now :-)

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  3. kmilyunSeptember 25, 2015 at 9:14:00 AM PDT

    Hey, now some of this sounds familiar - I think :) . Good to hear from you.

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