three fifty A.M.

And here I sit at my computer, an aging laptop whose keys don't ll work, like that missing 'a' just there. That is one of the reasons I haven't written much lately. I'm a perfectionist and that is one of my strengths, but also one of my greater weaknesses. It couples well with procrastination,   don't you think? It may be the source of my procrastination, well, strike that - it IS the source of my procrastination. I don't just want to write some slop, some drivel, so I wait until I have something to say, and then I never do ... hve something to say.

Just so you know, I am not going to go back to fix the errant a's that didn't type out. And I am going to do a stream of consciousness post, as most of them are, because I post out of guilt that I haven't posted in so long. So blah blah blah.

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I have been so very lazy lately (the past many months) that I haven't really done much of anything. I haven't been doing any exercising and I feel myself getting weaker because of it which really sucks. It's like watching the water of   life swirling the drain and I feel so stuck in this inertia. Not only haven't I been moving so  well lately, I haven't been thinking clearly either. I forget what I am supposed to do, so I don't do things I signed on for. I guess I need to go back to making   a master list and actually follow through with ticking through each item as I get it done.

Where I am failing most with this is in my sorority. I was appointed (not asked) to be the MS chairman and the Easter Seals chairman, this in addition to being Jr. Past President who is in charge of coming up with some project that will make money for our Disaster Fund. I cannot think of a project. I need to come up with something - a basket to auction off at a state meeting perhaps? I will need a theme for it, though. (something that includes wine would be good) Being MS chair is easy peasy: several of our group prticipate in the MS Walk every year, so aside from the end of year report, tht's done. I haven't been able to elicit a response from our State Easter Seals Chairman, so I need to look up her telephone # nd give her a call. Perhaps this weekend.   No. Definitely this weekend.

Gee, look at that. I've made some progress by just typing this post. A plan! whoopie! (sarcasm is dripping)
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The holiday season is upon us. Halloween came and went, and NO decorations were put up. NOT ONE. And we have some pretty cool decorations. And get this? We turned off the porch light this year because we didn't buy any candy. You see, we got the car back from car camp the 17th of October and the bill was high enough to make us rethink spending $25 for bags of goodies for stranger's kids. DH is as stuck as I am (more so, I think) so nothing is getting done.

I haven't made any plans for Thanksgiving, though I know I am welcome at my cousin's for dinner, I just haven't decided. Likely DH won't want to come, but we'll see. My family's Christmas is to be up in Anacortes where all my nephews will be bringing their kids, several of whom I haven't yet met. When I went up last year, I spent the night and came home the next day, but this year I don't think it seems wise to do tht. I foresee three potential issues. 1. I am weaker. Last year I could hardly get into the guest bed because it was so high. What is it with the high mattresses these days. It's an issue in hotels as well. 2. The toilets are low. Getting up from them is difficult. Using them is unavoidable. 3. The drive is about three  hours. Cognitively, I wonder how safe a driver I am any more, and then there's the cost of gas, although my SiL did give me a gas card this Summer when she thought I might be coming to Seattle, but didn't so I guess that's not an excuse. I guess what I am saying is: Christmas is up in the air.

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 Things I have planned between Thanksgiving and Christmas: a visit with my neurologist on the 26th; (and I JUST looked at my calendar and realised that an MS talk I wanted to see is Tomorrow morning. Suffice to say I won't be getting up early enough to be at a breakfast meeting...) Lunch with the girls on the 29th; Catheter change on the 4th; and my sorority's Christmas dinner and Secret Santa gift exchange on the 20th [oh, another bathroom situation that is not easy - the seat is low and there is nothing to push up on, let's hope I don't have to go, I've lucked out the last two years].

And one wonders why sometimes it's just easier to stay at home.

What do I need to prepare for what's coming my way?
I need Christmas cards for each of my sisters.
I need to purchase a gift card or two for my Secret Santa. I already got her a small metal wallet for her credit cards.
I need to make a list of what questions I have for my neuro. Uh, none? Will BG12 help me? I've already decided against Tysabri, and I think the side effects of Gilenya are pretty lousy too, so no to that. What else? PT would be good, but I can't afford the $35 co-pay per visit. At least I'll get an Rx for a Ritalin refill. Sure could have used one a few times this month.

Okay, I guess that's all I got. I will try to post more often, and with some topic on which to opine. Perhaps that should be my new year's resolution.

Good Night, TTYL, and Be Well,

Oh, and just in time for the season of eatin', here's a public service announcement:

That's ll, folks! (now where the hell did they put spell check? Oh forget it!)